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June 1st, 2008
12:24 am
i'm going insane. i know i am suffering from cabin fever. this sucks ass.
can someone give me a job? i'm needy.
why do i have such bad luck at this shit?
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September 21st, 2007
01:22 am - wow.
wow, it's been years literally, i haven't updated this thing. i live in kalamazoo, i know even know what to say to the "livejournal community". seriously. ...
well hello.
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March 7th, 2006
09:25 pm - for the ones that care(or think they do)
i was bored.
i reminisce with the past entries, took a look back at other peoples life and then went back to mine.
i can't stand my past. whenever i look back, think upon how i lived my life and played out everything that happend to me i get upset. this really irritates me this is my fucking life, and this is what i have to show for it at this point. i'm so dissappointed in myself, i seriously can't believe i've done this to myself. no one knows who i am, i would like to believe in myself from this point on. i apoligized to myself that i've just sat back, took the easy way out and just sat back and let everything in the world pass me by my whole life.
this isn't who i want to be. i'm not happy, i've never been
ps.
few months ago i destroyed a video (lit it on fire, with two friends one of whom was in the video) of my friends and me doing silly stuff in 9th grade. eventhough the footage had great times for the others in it, it only exemplified that i was a lost little boy (douchebag) only out to seek the same drive and motives of my peers by trying desperatly to be (/copy) them in any way possible. i now know that thinking that way has to be the down right worst idea in history in trying to make something out of yourself. me and the friend had no other choice but to destroy the evidence of our false life we've lead while no one else could know we've done this to the video the others enjoyed making.
with that said i had to get rid of the meaningless entries that made me upset becuase they were based on nothing and put my false dreamt lifestyle on a pedestal.
i feel better.
Current Mood: shakey
Current Music: the mircophones
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January 4th, 2006
12:13 am
does anyone rememeber grunge?
i bet it was better back then.
the world will now deteriorate. (deleted scene - one family diner at a time)
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November 10th, 2005
10:36 pm
i wish i was the kind of person that could denounce the internet and all its perks. but i can't
hi i'm ross, and now here's my myspace...
www.myspace.com/rosshurst
add me. its a place for friends so what is it without friends.
love ross
Current Music: takk...
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October 14th, 2005
11:38 pm
i hate you all.
livejournal is fucking stupid.
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September 21st, 2005
10:53 pm
EXTRA EXTRA READ ALL ABOUT IT!
if you would like to buy it, talk to me. i don't want it anymore.
Current Music: bright eyes
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September 10th, 2005
01:31 am
its taken me 18 years and about 6 months to realize that everything you do has a purpose, not a big purpose(sorry thats my astronomy thoughts again). but you must make an effort to have experiences, the fools are the ones who never try. everyday you learn something new, to me its something never taught its how you perceive things and take in information which gives you the reason for the things that happen in your life and the way you function. only you can change you thats a factual statement that i have prove of, i also have living proof of failures not trying if you have reason to testify. i just can't stress how badly unimportant sitations must be turned into something more, at least feel as if you get something or have obsorbed something when you put your head down when you go to sleep the next night.
their are people that are perfect walking examples of quality human being becuase they pose the abilities of socially being able to fit in the world, not giving a shit, stating their mind, feeling open and free, not caring what they do, and expressing them selves to show their dominance. what i'm getting at is these are the people that are good examples go off by. without meaningful people you end up like...(not stating names). i tell you these are the people that never get cancer. shouldn't i be in high school still?
what a mindfuck, anyway if anyone has lost interest by now heres a picture of a man thinking of a man thinking.
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: aphex twin
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September 2nd, 2005
10:26 pm - Not Available
i don't know why i ramble if i never get to a point. theirs reason for changes and change is good. i'm sorry to people i've made mad for the past few weeks. i haven't been happy about how i've felt and how i presented myself the past few weeks. mindless bullshit thats all in my head. not to say i feel better but i have to say it somehow. to sum it up easily i don't know what i want in my life and i can't think for myself so i worry and doubt everything i do. at least thats what i think. ok i just want to go to bed and start over tomorrow. end of story.
"the aching and breaking are the making of the soul"
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/tired.gif) tired
Current Music: the residents
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August 30th, 2005
08:28 pm
maybe somethings wrong
maybe somethings right,
but nobody is here to help guide me
so its goodbye and goodnight.
if i can sleep this one off too.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) pessimistic
Current Music: no music
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August 2nd, 2005
01:32 am
its august 2nd for fuck sake. whats that mean, where has it taken me, where have i taken myself, how will i fix this mess.
Current Mood: depleted
Current Music: joy division - something must break
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July 5th, 2005
07:43 pm
deafaids show was fun. thanks for everyone who came even though less then 20% of the people liked us, but who the fuck cares lol. it was our first show and in the end we pretty much had the biggest crowd becuase somehow everybody actually came for the first band then no one could take any more music as the night went on, or we drove them away. either way i had a blast. my guitar also broke over the weekend ::cry cry:: but its getting fixed kind of, i actually expected to play guitar at the show at least for one song until it took a nasty/pathedic spill.
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: white stripes
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June 28th, 2005
09:10 pm
July 3rd @ American Legion Hall
16736 Ecorse, Allen Park, MI 48101
Doors at 5:30 PM / Cost: $7.00
bands perform in this order:
- The Deaf Aids
- Madelyn (fl)
- Alucard
- Ari Thanos
- The Goodnight Variety
- Allison's Hope
- The December Drive (tx)
- Daniel
- Designed By You
GO! to see deaf aids most importantly. were first i persume.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) calm, i feel like i'm bouncing
Current Music: Conroy's cd he made
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June 25th, 2005
11:04 pm
me and you are going to the center of the earth. or to the outskirts of our galaxy becuase the moon has been looking amazing the last few days. its completly peaceful outside on nights like these, and we will listen to amnesiac the whole time too.
.don't over slept.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/thinking.gif) nostalgic
Current Music: Amnesiac
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June 9th, 2005
11:26 pm
sorry i can't be on the computer much anymore until i get this "gdisk" that kills everything possible on your computer so all the virus' are gone. becuase randomly now my computer switches to a porn site... what on earth would a thing like that happen... continuing on
i must say i had fun today at the play and the drama awards with people from school. mrs. west gave me a copy of midsummer and the friday performance which was the best one, was cut off at the end, not cool.
until then. some new people should give me a call-8500741-i'm sure you know who to ask for. o yea i don't know how to gain weight, HELP ME PEOPLE! somehow
Current Mood: good
Current Music: genders. again
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May 31st, 2005
07:19 pm
if i could take back everything and get 3 years back. i would deffiently do it, if i could think the way i do now back then. it seems everybody is that advantanced anyway nowadays since i can't find anyone less cooler then me.
Current Mood: not to good
Current Music: i really doesn't madder. no ones would know what it's anyway
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May 24th, 2005
07:26 pm
i wish i had a digital camera.
i'll make a myspace soon (thats where a digital camera would come in), but under a new identity.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/wink.gif) quixotic
Current Music: genders
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May 6th, 2005
02:31 pm
can someone please inform me about what the hell is going on in my life.
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April 20th, 2005
08:08 pm
lets all float on, and go day by day while we wait for the future thats been promised by others to happen while we waste away the present time we have to spend without someone, without plans or direction, with the thought of nothingness until the time we wait for comes to us, or without a sense or knowing why this time is being wasted right now...
or this is a time to completly lose your mind
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/confused.gif) confused
Current Music: the residents - animal lover
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April 14th, 2005
11:25 pm
nobody ended up stepping on me and crushsing me today.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/blah.gif) blank
Current Music: ECT
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