Ross

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 04:26:51 GMT

i'm going insane. i know i am suffering from cabin fever. this sucks ass.
can someone give me a job? i'm needy.
why do i have such bad luck at this shit?

wow.

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 05:25:55 GMT

wow, it's been years literally, i haven't updated this thing. i live in kalamazoo, i know even know what to say to the "livejournal community". seriously. ...
well hello.

for the ones that care(or think they do)

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 06:00:41 GMT

i was bored.

i reminisce with the past entries, took a look back at other peoples life and then went back to mine.
i can't stand my past. whenever i look back, think upon how i lived my life and played out everything that happend to me i get upset. this really irritates me this is my fucking life, and this is what i have to show for it at this point. i'm so dissappointed in myself, i seriously can't believe i've done this to myself. no one knows who i am, i would like to believe in myself from this point on. i apoligized to myself that i've just sat back, took the easy way out and just sat back and let everything in the world pass me by my whole life.
this isn't who i want to be. i'm not happy, i've never been

ps.
few months ago i destroyed a video (lit it on fire, with two friends one of whom was in the video) of my friends and me doing silly stuff in 9th grade. eventhough the footage had great times for the others in it, it only exemplified that i was a lost little boy (douchebag) only out to seek the same drive and motives of my peers by trying desperatly to be (/copy) them in any way possible. i now know that thinking that way has to be the down right worst idea in history in trying to make something out of yourself. me and the friend had no other choice but to destroy the evidence of our false life we've lead while no one else could know we've done this to the video the others enjoyed making.
with that said i had to get rid of the meaningless entries that made me upset becuase they were based on nothing and put my false dreamt lifestyle on a pedestal.

i feel better.

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 08:16:37 GMT

does anyone rememeber grunge?

i bet it was better back then.

the world will now deteriorate. (deleted scene - one family diner at a time)

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 06:39:42 GMT

i wish i was the kind of person that could denounce the internet and all its perks. but i can't

hi i'm ross, and now here's my myspace...

www.myspace.com/rosshurst
add me. its a place for friends so what is it without friends.

love ross

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 03:40:21 GMT

i hate you all.

livejournal is fucking stupid.

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 03:04:24 GMT

EXTRA EXTRA READ ALL ABOUT IT!

if you would like to buy it, talk to me. i don't want it anymore.

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 06:27:33 GMT

its taken me 18 years and about 6 months to realize that everything you do has a purpose, not a big purpose(sorry thats my astronomy thoughts again). but you must make an effort to have experiences, the fools are the ones who never try. everyday you learn something new, to me its something never taught its how you perceive things and take in information which gives you the reason for the things that happen in your life and the way you function. only you can change you thats a factual statement that i have prove of, i also have living proof of failures not trying if you have reason to testify. i just can't stress how badly unimportant sitations must be turned into something more, at least feel as if you get something or have obsorbed something when you put your head down when you go to sleep the next night.
their are people that are perfect walking examples of quality human being becuase they pose the abilities of socially being able to fit in the world, not giving a shit, stating their mind, feeling open and free, not caring what they do, and expressing them selves to show their dominance. what i'm getting at is these are the people that are good examples go off by. without meaningful people you end up like...(not stating names). i tell you these are the people that never get cancer. shouldn't i be in high school still?
what a mindfuck, anyway if anyone has lost interest by now heres a picture of a man thinking of a man thinking.

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Sat, 03 Sep 2005 05:44:13 GMT

i don't know why i ramble if i never get to a point. theirs reason for changes and change is good. i'm sorry to people i've made mad for the past few weeks. i haven't been happy about how i've felt and how i presented myself the past few weeks. mindless bullshit thats all in my head. not to say i feel better but i have to say it somehow. to sum it up easily i don't know what i want in my life and i can't think for myself so i worry and doubt everything i do. at least thats what i think. ok i just want to go to bed and start over tomorrow. end of story.

"the aching and breaking are the making of the soul"

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 03:32:47 GMT

maybe somethings wrong
maybe somethings right,
but nobody is here to help guide me
so its goodbye and goodnight.

if i can sleep this one off too.

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 05:36:16 GMT

its august 2nd for fuck sake. whats that mean, where has it taken me, where have i taken myself, how will i fix this mess.

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 03:23:28 GMT

deafaids show was fun. thanks for everyone who came even though less then 20% of the people liked us, but who the fuck cares lol. it was our first show and in the end we pretty much had the biggest crowd becuase somehow everybody actually came for the first band then no one could take any more music as the night went on, or we drove them away. either way i had a blast. my guitar also broke over the weekend ::cry cry:: but its getting fixed kind of, i actually expected to play guitar at the show at least for one song until it took a nasty/pathedic spill.

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 04:17:52 GMT

July 3rd @ American Legion Hall
16736 Ecorse, Allen Park, MI 48101
Doors at 5:30 PM / Cost: $7.00
bands perform in this order:
- The Deaf Aids
- Madelyn (fl)
- Alucard
- Ari Thanos
- The Goodnight Variety
- Allison's Hope
- The December Drive (tx)
- Daniel
- Designed By You
GO! to see deaf aids most importantly. were first i persume.

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 06:20:40 GMT

me and you are going to the center of the earth. or to the outskirts of our galaxy becuase the moon has been looking amazing the last few days. its completly peaceful outside on nights like these, and we will listen to amnesiac the whole time too.

.don't over slept.

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 03:29:46 GMT

sorry i can't be on the computer much anymore until i get this "gdisk" that kills everything possible on your computer so all the virus' are gone. becuase randomly now my computer switches to a porn site... what on earth would a thing like that happen... continuing on

i must say i had fun today at the play and the drama awards with people from school. mrs. west gave me a copy of midsummer and the friday performance which was the best one, was cut off at the end, not cool.

until then. some new people should give me a call-8500741-i'm sure you know who to ask for. o yea i don't know how to gain weight, HELP ME PEOPLE! somehow

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 02:41:52 GMT

if i could take back everything and get 3 years back. i would deffiently do it, if i could think the way i do now back then. it seems everybody is that advantanced anyway nowadays since i can't find anyone less cooler then me.

Wed, 25 May 2005 02:31:25 GMT

i wish i had a digital camera.

i'll make a myspace soon (thats where a digital camera would come in), but under a new identity.

Fri, 06 May 2005 18:22:40 GMT

can someone please inform me about what the hell is going on in my life.

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 03:31:46 GMT

lets all float on, and go day by day while we wait for the future thats been promised by others to happen while we waste away the present time we have to spend without someone, without plans or direction, with the thought of nothingness until the time we wait for comes to us, or without a sense or knowing why this time is being wasted right now...
or this is a time to completly lose your mind

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 03:29:28 GMT

nobody ended up stepping on me and crushsing me today.

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 02:39:05 GMT

...::knock knock knock::.................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................anybody there........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................i see everything, -do you all see me- but nothing sees me,,,,,, give it time.....

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 06:35:34 GMT

today shouldn't have happend, it was terrible nothing good came from it. i'm sorry for everyone who had to put up with me. i can't believe this is spring break, and a friday.

when my alarm went off today smashing pumpkins - today was on... april fools huh...

goodnight, i've had enough

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 04:29:35 GMT

Today. weird day... odd day... worst day of my life(perhaps, who knows)-definitly messed up in my eyes though for me-....

ask me in person if you must becuase it would take to long to type out and their are many different ways to answer this.

something for the eyes:

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 04:54:16 GMT

i knew what to say about 20 minutes ago but now all i can think of is that if i had been in drama since the beginning of the year at least then i would have felt better and not so worthless in general because every one there and involved had a blast it looked like. none the less i had a mild good time, and appreicated everything that happend. i felt left out.

blah

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 05:22:58 GMT